Flowing comfort

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Today was sort of bizarre atmosphere to my soul.

As I cling to strict discipline in managing my time, I eventually got exhausted and anxious every time I might violate which rules I had imposed.

This is my transition pace to healthy living. No more sleepless nights, waking up early and eating healthy meals on time.

I’m on my third day in taking up my pills and so far, this has been the best. I’ve got difficulty in swallowing them up especially that the antioxidant is really big thank God I’ve no blurting out this time.

I’m supposed to attend our Church’s Thanksgiving in Cuneta Astrodome and made it to our (my leader) meeting place at 11:00. She’s running late to our commitment but it’s alright since the event will start at 2:00 and it only takes three-quarter hour from where am I to the venue. It’s taking her too long and waiting really stretches. Patience is a virtue.

She called and that her card was swallowed by the atm. She wanted me to go by myself so I won’t be late. I can’t remember the way though and I told her I’ll wait. She texted me again reiterating her suggestion implying the delay that the case is causing us both. I felt discomfort, my back is aching and my head start to be slightly dizzy. I know cannot go to the event alone. So I decided not to push through. I went home but before it I bought my essentials to the store I passed by since it’s a mall.

I proceed to my devo after some time and here’s my revelation:

The Word was about comfort from God (2 Corinthians 1:3-11).

This is the Word I really need. I have problems now and these bring discomfort that I despaired and lost that zeal in life (v.8-9). In the beginning I thought that the ultimate answer to why I’m having these cases is that so I can comfort others who are burdened by any affliction with the comfort that God is enveloping me along with my suffering (v.4). But there is something that struck me harder.

In verse 9, it said that all this is, is for us to not rely on ourselves but to God. In this way, we will discern and feel His glory, that nothing is impossible through Him. We fail because it is either we pursue things not on His will or we are not putting love for God first on our motives. At the first reason, this is really how our God works. No matter how far we run from Him through committing sins and omitting His commands, He wants our salvation and directs us to the right track sometimes the hard way. But finding His will is as pleasurable as it will be after all. His will is for us to gain His favor.

These fast few weeks were the busiest weeks for the sem, finals. All the feels. To be honest, I didn’t do my devos and felt incomplete. I'm bewildered. I haven’t attended the last Sunday service and even the Thanksgiving earlier. This was my devo after like more than two weeks of drought. To my actions, it reflects that I trusted myself too much, it is vain I spent all my time to earthly things. And the same time, I got ill. My past devo then flashed back to my memory, that why there is death or sickness is because our sins are flagrant.

Delight ourselves to the Lord and all of His will will be clear to us. I got sick because unhealthy lifestyle is not His will for me. I felt unrest because I haven’t read His Word which through His grace supplies my strength. It takes me too long to finish my tasks because I am distracted by things which are for sure not His will.

We achieve things because of the boldness in our hearts to conquer whatever it takes, that is from God through the Holy Spirit. He strengthens the weak and prepares the way for the blameless. The glory be to God.

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